I think the author correctly identifies a dilemma of being unable to ignore AI's capabilities as it enables you to leave your old tools in the dust, but being apprehensive of cultivating dependency in the latest AI services. Progress is being undone in at least one front. The PC had transferred the ownership of the means of produ--I mean "democratized" the creation of art and communication. (and duh, computing)

However this lack of desire to create could be particular to the author. The author's visual art isn't appealing to me, and the taste I share with a lot of other people. If the gallery on the author's website[0] stands for skill the author says they'd been cultivating, it is my opinion that they seem to have liked painting and paintings less than creating algorithmic tools for the digital painting process. When AI showed up, algorithmic tools the author's made became comparatively dull to work with.

[0] https://idiomdrottning.org/gallery