96 is not reflecting my age, I'm in my early 30s

This is a throwaway so I can be dumb and learn stuff

Career/partial life bio

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Feb 2026

I was bad last night, luckily I came out unscathed but damn. Maybe I do need to quit alcohol unless I'm at a controlled environment like a friend's house. I just bypass my own limits when I'm lit. I'm on an upward trajectory interviewing for a $140K job highest I have ever made if I got it. I guess it is time to quit drinking. Next will be speeding but seems if I stay under a hundred no jail time. I was at 150mph last night damn. Funny I go into a bathroom and this song "wish you would step back from that ledge my friend" is playing which I'm not in that direction but yeah, still negative trend.

I did my first weekend of no drinking, wrote my own code, was good, put the money I would have spent on alcohol towards debt.

Another potential interview for AI Applications Engineer damn that's the hotness right now. I have fear, self-doubt but I'm doing it now. I need the upside, get out of debt faster. I feel like I've gained control of my life again, I've reduced the amount of money I was giving away every month to my families eg. $2.5K+ vs. $600 per month. Also not going out anymore or hitting the strip club dropping $1.2K a night. I want my desert ranch, sports car and no 9-5 job.

Previous mental samples

https://pastebin.com/XZWrf7kg (Jan 2026) https://pastebin.com/KYN3SpMf (2025) https://pastebin.com/5xCTbGsu (2023 - Mar 2025)